Day 1685 - Weigh In (Day 15 - Third Time's a Charm)

Today's weight AND measurements are:

Two weeks later, these are my measurements: 

* Weight is specified in KILOS** Measurements in centimeters
*** Here's a converter if you need: http://www.onlineconversion.com/weight_common.htm

Date:	25-Sep	09-Oct
Weight	86.400	PENDING (I would like to be weighed ONLY on the doctors scale to keep control on that.
Waist	111	102
Arm	35	33
Hip	120	112
Abdomen	118	111
Chest	110	106
Thigh	60	58

Corporal Grease:             Pending        

It's a great satisfaction to see fast results when making a diet. 

All the effort and money are completely worth it!

Day 1681 - Dizzy Borden (Day 11 - Third Time's a Charm)

First of all, I cannot believe I am 11 days through. It went so fast! Can't wait for November 14th. 

So, since yesterday, I have NOT been hungry at all. 
Yes I am on ketosis, I know because the pasty mouth is back. 
I have forced myself to eat AT LEAST three meals. 
I have to acknowledge I had to stop taking the AXCION pill, but I'm afraid to have those impulses. I guess this pill is helping with the "no hungry at all" sensation.

Today I've felt light headed, my jaw hurts (I think it's the HARDENED bread. I'm a masochist I must say, my jaw hurts horribly but still ate the bread and is SO GOOD) and I've felt Very very tired I must say. I mean, I'm functional and all, but the feeling is all over. 

Nauseated at times, light headed, dizzy, -jaw hurts-, tired, sleepy at times, but instead of lying in bed, I kept working. It's annoying to have this feeling all day long and can't do anything about it. 

I don't remember feeling like this last time. I'll have to go and check. 

Cheers!

Day 1674 - Jumpin' Jack Flash is a GAS GAS GAS (Day 4 - Third Time's a Charm)

Although this time experience is not as detailed as last time, I will be posting the "highlights" or different experiences on this time doing the diet. 

So... I don't know if I'm already on ketosis or the pills (phentermine) are the ones that keep me calm without anxiety BUT, I'm controlling so good those attacks and even though I watch TV and (By the way, have you ever noticed that on EVERY TV show, there's always someone eating DELICIOUS food?) I want to eat what they are eating I can convince myself to not eat and wait for 1, 2 or 3 hours depending my schedule and I can manage through. 

One thing I have noticed, is that when I'm not working or being distracted, I am constantly watching the clock counting the hours for my next meal. 
Memo to me: Keep Busy. 

The most strange thing (and new thing) -and I'm so sorry for the explicit anecdote- is that I feel bloated and am "gassy" very uncomfortable. I don't know if it's the meals or the tomato olive oil combination. I'll have to figure that out. 

Above all... I'm loving every minute of this time!

  Update: By theory of elimination, it seems the bread is giving me this reaction. 

Update 05/10/2017 . -  So It seems it's the chocolate/coconut bar. As I was thinking, the maltitol on the fake chocolate is the one that makes this effect. 

Day 1672 - Weigh In (Day 2 - Third Time's a Charm)

Feeling good. The new food is AMAZING! I tried the toast and the coconut bar covered with chocolate. 

I must admit the toast was VERY hard.. my jaw was killing me at night. 

The coconut bar, was very good also. 

HOWEVER

I'm not trying to be picky or a party pooper, but It's how I am experiencing it. 

Once I finished my meal, after 5 minutes, I get this feeling of numbness on my throat. Not a hard numbness but a feeling as if I had a flu and my throat feels funny. 

It happened with the coconut bar and the toast specifically. 

Last night I had this sensation and couldn't eat the 5th meal. I  knooow I knooow I shouldn't do this, but I had no appetite at all and the feeling on my throat was not helping. 

Also, I have noticed it's taking me a lot more effort to swallow all the pills. 
I couldn't try the vitamins, made me nauseous. 

I feel happy above all. 

Today I ate toasts again, they have an acid flavor to it so I ate them with 100gr of tomato, 2 tbsp of extra virgin olive oil and that was a great combination. 
Still... My throat feels funny.

Day - 1671a - Weigh In (Day 1 - Third Time's a Charm)

Today's weight AND measurements are:

First day, first measurements: 

* Weight is specified in KILOS** Measurements in centimeters
*** Here's a converter if you need: http://www.onlineconversion.com/weight_common.htm

Date:	25-Sep
Weight	84.6
Waist	111
Arm	35
Hip	120
Abdomen	118
Chest	110
Thigh	60

Corporal Grease:             Pending                                                                                      

Day 1671 - Ready? OK! Let's begin (Day 1 - Third time's a charm)

Day ONE (Third time's a charm) 

As I look back to the first day ever I did this diet (Day 1) , I can see a whole lot of difference. 

Now that I know how it works and how can I feel, I am determined to do it. I am happier this time because I know the results, I know the feeling and how I will be experiencing the diet. 

I have to acknowledge, this medicine ACXION (fentermine) really helps my hunger/appetite. It controls my satiety and I'm not hungry all the time. 

So today I will be eating every three hours and the menu is: 

Check out the new products!! TOAST and CHIPS OOOOHHH the greatness!! It looks soooo goooood!!! I'll update on the flavors later. 

One thing I am really conflicted with, is the LEMON. Yes, my lemonade is now restricted. Although i can consume splenda (only 4 envelopes a day) I can ONLY HAVE ONE LEMON a day because yes, -and I forgot this fact- it has carbohydrates!! Damn! I will have to work with what I have, because strangely drinking plain water gives me heartburn. 

So, I just started today, let's see how it goes. 

Day 1670a - EXCERCISE---SAY WHAAAT?

As I recall.... Exercising was NOT allowed during the Phase 1 of Pronokal, but they soon discovered the muscular mass was reduced a lot. 

A personal trainer (from PRONOKAL) contacted me via e-mail -he is also available in-sit-um and sent me an 8 minute a day program which i have to do only three days a week. 

Believe me, I am not an exercise person, BUT I will have to do it.

Here's the program:

Sorry, It's in Spanish. 

Day 1670 - Preparation

So today (Sunday) I'm preparing to start tomorrow. 

I am a little bit confused on the DHA part, because I have to take one after every meal that does not have it already added. 

I have figured out how to do it, and although it's not the same quantity of supplements I used to take (The Melman Cocktail) It's still a bunch. 

This time the Vitamins, Magnesium, Calcium and Oligoelements are all together on an envelope which are taken dissolved on water. 

Remember: not everybody needs to take the same supplements and not everybody needs to take the same ammount, it totally depends on your doctor's personal and individual prescription, this is just MY case which I'm sharing. 

1.- Dabex XR (Metphormine) - Medicine for diabetes II control - 1 Pill.
2.- Sodium - 3 Pills a day.
3.- Vitamins Magnesium, Calcium and Oligoelements  - 2 Envelopes a day.
4.- Pottasium - 5 Pills a day.
5.- Calcium - 1 Pill..
6.- Omega Balance - 1 Pill.
7.- DHA - Depends on what meals I ingest that day that does not have DHA added.
8.- Fentermine - 1 pill (for the first five days until I reach cetosis.)

These are my daily dosages. 

** Please do not auto prescribe yourself, always ask your doctor and NEVER take medicines without medical supervision!!!. 

Day 1689 - The NEW Pronokal Method: PNK

So we have heard about the failed stories with the Pronokal diet, in which most people who did this diet (including me) recovered the lost weight, bouncing again the weight and some times even more. 

The Pronokal scientist have dedicated the last years studying why their clients recovered the weight, and they discovered LIPOINFLAMATION. 

It resumes to this: 

On normal conditions, the adipose tissue is conformed basically from adipositos which are in charge of storing body fat and preadipositos, which are made of immune system cells, other cells, veins and nervous system. 

The more we eat fat, the more the adipose tissue increases making the adipositos grow and while some get destroyed, the other create more fat cells while still growing and storing more fat. They segregate substances which alters how we process carbohydrates and we have more predisposition to gain weight the inflammatory cells alter the central nervous system, resulting in appetite increase and finally because of the inflammatory substances there are changes on the adiposites which secrete more inflammatory substances which multiply other substances and therefore multiplies inflammation which increases obesity. 

The appearance of these molecules, blocks the satiety on our body and that is why we keep eating, which also affects the carbohydrate alteration and so the lipids deposit center. 

The person who has this alteration has more probability of getting Diabetes, Hypertension, Heart disease.

Pronokal group has developed a new system PROTEIN DHA which besides from the diet we know, they have added DHA which is an anti inflammatory substance which acts on the adipositos avoiding inflammation  avoiding regaining the lost weight.

This new system is applied ONLY on the new products, and because I bought products that don't have DHA they provided me with a DHA capsule. 

I have to take ONE capsule AFTER every meal that don't have DHA added. 



Here is the video in spanish: VIDEO

Day 1688 - Let's do it!

Tuesday September 19, 2017

I had everything figured out, I had called Pronokal, got their new address, asked for a new doctor (the old Dr. I used to go to, didn't answered my call, and maybe there was a reason and maybe it would be good to change doctor) got her address, asked for a loan to an acquaintance and it was all done. 

I was ready to got at it one more time. 

With the best intentions, I went out with my best attitude and happy for my decision. 

I got to my appointment at 1:00 o clock in the afternoon. I patiently waited for ten minutes while I looked at my profile folder from four years ago. Then I realized I did not took the complete blood analysis the doctors usually ask for. 
Damn! I have to take a blood sample. I HATE those. Not because of needles, but because I know, that like a test, I would fail on an EPIC way. It gives me the sensation I'm being judged (a stupid sensation I know, but I feel people are always judging me) but I know I would have to do it. So I put that aside, made my peace with it and waited for my turn. 

I entered the consulting room. She was so polite, we started our introductions, and then. 

EARTHQUAKE!

We got out -thank GOD it was a house and not a building- I swear, as I got out and saw the cars moving back and forth endlessly, the world was coming to an end. And my one and only thought was: 

"So, this is it. I'm gonna die. I'm going to die..FAT!"

Yes I know, as crazy as it sounds, that was my thought that very moment. 

Fat had officially was declared the ruler of my life. 

So, as every time we have an earthquake here as soon as it ends, we call our loved ones, check they are OK and we go on with our lives, I entered again to the consulting room and we went thru the appointment fast. We wanted to go and see our families. 

The Doctor was so understanding and she told me she wouldn't charge me at all, because she knows how expensive it could be. Also, she said she would suspend the medicine I was taking for the last years (Victoza Cost: 166 USD) which will also help on my monthly expenses. 

I wanted to go that same day to Pronokal and get everything ready to start on Thursday, but unfortunately, the damage the earthquake did was immense as you should know. Everything was closed and evacuated, so I had to postpone it until Friday. 

Friday I wen running to Pronokal offices, and got my stash, for 6 weeks because I live far away, so I wanted to avoid those roads at least for a month an a half.  I knew it would be expensive, but not $1,350.00 USD. 
I know it's expensive, but sincerely, I'm worth it. all the way. 

Got 5 products (the ones I am sure I will like) put everything on my HUGE suitcase and left. 

That's it. I was ready to do it. 

Day 1687 - Third Time's a Charm

I was starting a new diet, and a new blog, I was convinced it would work. I had purchased it all the way from London BUT while I waited, I started with AXION (fentermine) which controls appetite and makes me loose weight. 

That was almost three weeks ago. Today is Thursday. 

Last Saturday I was on a festivity and took a picture. OH DISASTER! I saw the image once, twice, several times. I just couldn't believe what I was looking at. That wasn't me! that fat swollen huge faced girl in the image was NOT ME!

While I was hating myself for letting my weight go that way, I felt this void on my stomach. I felt sick. 

The next day I was trying to take a selfie while waking up, just joking with my friend. When I saw that image I could not believe my eyes! ¿When on earth did I get a double chinnnnn? I deleted it immediately and stood up from bed. 

I had breakfast ONLY BECAUSE I had to eat and "break the fast" I was making since last night. I didn't wanted to eat (new eating disorder on the way) but I had to. So I ate but hated every minute of it. 

And then, I took the decision: I'll do PRONOKAL again, no matter how much it takes no matter what.

I decided that was the only diet that made me loose weight, fast.

On monday, I would do ANYTHING to get back on the diet. 

Day 1467 - Or better known as: Four Years Later

So here I am, three years later, FORTY KILOS overweight, isolated in my room, basically, back to square one. Once again.

In a desperate try to diet again, I went to the Dr. who attended me, to ask for his (financial) help. 

I have to admit, I spent over $5,000.00 (Yes, FIVE THOUSANDTH DOLLARS) on this treatment which, after four years, I am STILL paying on credit.

So, I went to the Dr. and he didn't offered me Pronokal as a treatment but he gave me another protein-like dust to drink, and yes, he helped me with his fee and the price on this new protein. 

However, It's not the same. Obviously.

Never drank those protein shakes and returned to the ol'nasty eating habits. 

Never went back with that Dr. 

In a moment of desperation, three months ago, I called Pronokal, they had sent me an email with a special promotion, giving credit etc. 

Without giving any thought, I called them immediately. 

They said, my treatment to loose those extra 80 pounds I now have, would cost $4.000.00 Yes, another four thousand dollars, which I obviously don't have. 

So, depressed and beaten again with frustration, I put the diet behind and one year later, here I am, hiding behind four walls, avoiding human contact, probably depressed and eating everything I can get my hands on. 

It's a horrible habit, it breaks your will and it makes you feel good for a while, but then you need more because the existential emptiness is still there. 

I've never done drugs, but as I'm writing this, it feels clearly that food is a drug.  
I know there is the nutritionist factor, but I know them all, back and forth, I simply hate weighing the food, counting the calories, avoiding sugars and carbohydrates. 

The math is simple; avoid these and the weigh will come off. Yeah. Ok. Not ready for this. 

After Pronokal, eating is different, and also, my body changed, it gains weigh differently, my face is thin and the fat has gone wherever it wants. 
I cannot look at a mirror, my "Dracula Syndrome" is back. 

I have learned about another treatment, I will be posting another blog of. 

I'll keep you posted. 

Try Again - Day 0 - Three years later - Yoyo-ing

It's funny how my enthusiasm works. 

I have been dragged -once again- into the "Obese-1" label once again, avoiding mirrors, dressing with almost the same clothes to say the least. I have started to hide again from the world, eating, binge-ing and eating until I've got sick. Hating myself for eating and not be able to stop.

I had been trying to diet "the normal way", you know, based on the pyramid food control, based on calories, based on the healthy choices we need to make to keep fit. But it was useless. Not even a scare of high 255 glucose level made me think about it.

Until the inspiration comes (Pick an inspiration, any little inspiration) and then, it's all up hill again with this crazy effort. And then, the inspiration came. 

I went several months ago to the same Pronokal doctor, and asked him for help. Financial Help. That's why I left the treatment in the first place, and that's why I gained the weight back.

Of course I did not had the money to pay, so I asked him if there was any chance for me to start again Pronokal with a discount. He agreed without hesitating, but this time, it would be another treatment (protein based). 
He gave me BIOPROTEIN, and a new pill that totally blocks my anxiety for eating. 

This was in October 2015, and after months of being sick with the flu among other illnesses, I have finally decided to start. May 1st. 

I must say I tried the shakes. And did not liked them at all. 
I prepared the with water, and made me gag all the way through the drinking process. So tomorrow I will try them with milk. 
I'll let you know how its working, but I can tell you as of now, I'm not hungry. 
It's a strange sensation... my stomach growls with hunger, but I don't have -at all- the urge to stuff my face with food. 

I can only drink 5 of these a day. That's it, and of course the same veggies as phase 1 in Pronokal. I'll let you know how it goes. 

The mind is so powerful, I'm not hungry, or thirsty or have any anxiety.. but I get sunk into the obsessive thought and it drags me to the times I'm eating and the pleasure it gives me. 

It's a constant fight. 

So, here I go again: 

May 1st - 191.8 pounds / 87 Kilos / 13.7 Stone.

Ideal weight: 132.2 pounds / 60 Kilos / 9.44 Stone.

Of course, this is my "ideal weight", not the healthy weight, so when I get to 65 kilos, I'll see where to go from there. 

I am not happy. Diets for me are punishment. Since I can recall, I've been on diets. I hate them. I have "HANGRY" issues. LOL. 

Has any one of you that have made PRONOKAL got addicted to meats and protein? obsessed with what you eat? Sick or Ill when you eat a specific food? (I became lactose intolerant and addicted to meat)

Let me know how your experience went!
I know I'll keep you posted on this new adventure. 

HUGS!

  

Day 00 - Inspirational

Just when I thought I could never do anything sporty... girls like this come along to give me a lesson in life. 

Day 0 - (Again) ---and you really thought it was the end?

Being an Obsessive Compulsive, I JUST couldn't let food and this diet beat me. 

A doctor's appointment is made for next Tuesday. I know I can do it, I know I can beat all these pounds. Sooooo, Here I go, ONE MORE TIME... WITH FEELING!

Day 450 - Season Finale: Failure

I feel like a failure. I will be going to the endocrinologist for other options. Pronokal is a great diet. It worked for me for a while, but my illness goes way beyond the psychological matter. I think it has something to do with the insatiability... I cannot stop eating. 

The last few days, I've had one word on my mind: BYPASS. 

UPDATE September 2017:.
I AM RESTARTING PRONOKAL. I'LL KEEP YOU POSTED.  

Day 443 - What Happened

I was reading this blog about the past year... ¿What happened? ¿what happened to me? I was so enthusiastic about it... and then I fell and hit rock bottom...again. 

Day 442 - Who is the judge here?

It's interesting how we judge people without knowing their story. I usually try no to do it, but I have to confess, I judged Dominique Lanoise (Post 49 to watch click link) for a moment when she ate to her death. 

For a moment I thought How could she? she had the opportunity and the medical staff to make it right and she chose to eat until she died. 

Well, I have been thinking of her lately. 

Is not that I am choosing to eat until I die, it's just that I have been on a constant binge for the last two months not thinking I could die. As easy as that. 

People think they have the right to give you their piece of mind (diet wise speaking). And this is what has happened the last months, all comments made by men (young and old). 

• Are you exercising? (of course I had to say yes...that way I wouldn't be ashamed) -Sure why? -Cause it shows!, your body looks firm and better (SERIOUSLYYYYYYYYY!!!!! OMG! and WTF!)
• Why are you eating (a nutella crepe)? Are you angry? What are you feeling? Think abut it, express your feeling, don't eat it -he actually pulled me away from the Nutella stand- I felt so much hate I felt I ate crying inside. (WHAAAAAT? I'm eating a Nutella Crepe because I have been yearning for one for the last 14 months! and I actually answered: Because I want! Because I can!) Confession: This was my father.
• I'm not saying DON'T EAT THAT KIT KAT BAR, I'm just saying, next time you want a chocolate, try a sugar free one (OH Leave me alone! I'm in the US, there are no chocolate bars that taste like this where I live, just let me be I want to eat!) Confession: I ate all those chocolate bars with anger...lots of anger for the next month.

All these comments (made to me by people I love/like) come along with this stupid head tilt and droopy eyed gesture which SCREAMS to you: You are doing SO wrong, you're getting fat again awww. 

It's true. 

People may say: I'm just saying this for your own health, because I worry about you, because I love you (a guy even said to me -which still puzzles me- I don't want to be a widower if you keep eating this way... (and again: W-T-F?!?!?!?!?!) and they feel they have the right to say those things to you!. 

For me, they are judging. And I hate those comments, it bring out the worst of me. I reply with hate, I stare with hostility, I react...

Hurting myself: Bingeing.

I eat furiously. The quantities are exaggerated, the portions are out-blown (i.e. I can tell I once ate -I could bet on it- TWO POUNDS of meat. In one sitting. and still I had dessert.i.e. 5 kit-kat bars)  and STILL be hungry -or maybe the correct word is angry?

I have stopped going outside and socialize, because I don't want people to judge me: "Look at her, tsk tsk, tsk, all the weight she lost, all the effort she invested on the diet and just look at her... she is fat again..what a failure"

Just the thought of this makes my skin crawl and hate everyone, everything every..myself. 

I'm struggling here. As always, but today, even more. 

Don't judge me.

Day 441 - Weigh In (Here I go again...)

Today I did not gave it a thought. I just got the stupid scale out and stepped on it. I only saw numbers. I double checked, remembered the numbers I saw and came to the PC to write them. 

That's all they are. Numbers. They won't bring me down nor make me feel bad anymore. I need to get them down -fast- so, here they are: 

February 18 2013 - 194.8

Relapsed October 12 2013

Started again on November 21 - 170.0

November 28 -  156.7

Started AGAIN on May 05 2014 - 183.2

So this will be my starting Weigh In as from today. I will not let it go and will get to the finish line and stay there. This I promise to myself. 

One Year (or 440 days) later....

I think it's important, not only to tell your own success stories but also your failures and relapses, this is (still) my (relapse) story. 

It has been very very difficult, there has been a bunch of obstacles I have fallen into, which I'll tell in simple bullet points, just to make it easier and faster. 

• On November, when I saw I had lost almost 40 pounds, I began to give myself "treats" or "permissions" with food, specially chocolates.
  
  
• In December I traveled and -obviously- holidays kicked in. Diet was nowhere to be seen.
  
  
• January I decided to start again so I can finally get to my 60 pound goal.
  
  
• February PRONOKAL prices went (a lot) up, so I decided to try my own protein diet...which (of course) failed.
  
  
• March still tried to begin PRONOKAL diet, but went one week on, one week off.
  
  
• April was mayhem. I traveled the whole month and ate -at least, and I'm not exaggerating at all- 100 chocolate bars. Don't even make me explain the carbs. 

I am not proud of this, actually I am scared, and ashamed. I feel as if I failed. But this feeling is not defeating me, I am starting again. Today.  

Day 287 - Weigh In

So.... I have to do this. Be brave. I  got up on the scale. Saw the numbers...got up again. I'm so confused. 

Either I have a good body memory OR, this diet is WONDERFUL: 

February 18 - 194.8

Relapsed October 12

Started again on November 21 - 170.0

November 28 -  156.7

NEW COUNT 

Total pounds lost in 7 days:  13.3 pounds. (6.032 kilos)

Total pounds lost in 287 days:  38.1 pounds. (17.281 kilos)