A daily explanation on a PRONOKAL diet
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
Day 168 - Cetosis Mode OFF!
So I broke cetosis.
With a Muffin and a Sandwich!!
I havent feel bad, but mentally, I feel guilty, I see my face in the mirror and I see a fat face. Swollen cheeks and a second chin.... I know It's my dismorphia watching, but I just cant help it.
I will try to keep this cetosis mode off as lightly as possible. And I will repeat myself over and over to keep calm and to eat small portions.
But that muffin... was heavenly... I was dancing in the muffin shop while I ate it... I know, it's crazy, but these are the little things in life that make me happy.
Then again, when I finished and got out of the store... I felt SOOOO bad, and I asked myself: ¿was it really worth it?
With a Muffin and a Sandwich!!
I havent feel bad, but mentally, I feel guilty, I see my face in the mirror and I see a fat face. Swollen cheeks and a second chin.... I know It's my dismorphia watching, but I just cant help it.
I will try to keep this cetosis mode off as lightly as possible. And I will repeat myself over and over to keep calm and to eat small portions.
But that muffin... was heavenly... I was dancing in the muffin shop while I ate it... I know, it's crazy, but these are the little things in life that make me happy.
Then again, when I finished and got out of the store... I felt SOOOO bad, and I asked myself: ¿was it really worth it?
Day 167 - Next Procedure to Follow
So the next procedure to follow according to the doctor, is to break Cetosis.
This time, REALLY BREAK CETOSIS.
From today (tuesday) until next Sunday, you will eat normally, your three meals, eggs in the morning, with a loaf of bread and coffee, eat normally, whatever you want, in small portions, and have a light dinner.
¿WHATT? ¿SERIOUSLY?
- "Yes" he said, "then, on monday, you will start up again with six envelopes, no meat, so you loose your last 20 pounds and then we will go to phase 2b, 3 & 4, and then maintainance".
- "Don't be scared, you're not the only one or the first one going through this".
And he gave me another medicine. L Carrotine.
Let´s see how this goes.
This time, REALLY BREAK CETOSIS.
From today (tuesday) until next Sunday, you will eat normally, your three meals, eggs in the morning, with a loaf of bread and coffee, eat normally, whatever you want, in small portions, and have a light dinner.
¿WHATT? ¿SERIOUSLY?
- "Yes" he said, "then, on monday, you will start up again with six envelopes, no meat, so you loose your last 20 pounds and then we will go to phase 2b, 3 & 4, and then maintainance".
- "Don't be scared, you're not the only one or the first one going through this".
And he gave me another medicine. L Carrotine.
Let´s see how this goes.
Day 166 - Doctors appointment
..and then I went to the doctor. After all, I had to confront him and tell him I spent a month not following the diet as specified.
He immediately sent me to do the cetosis test. I just couldnt pee on the cup and therefore, could not get any result on cetosis.
My weigh and EVERYTHING was the same as last month.
- "You're out of Cestosis" He said.
- "No", I immediately replied
- "Yes" he said "you're stuck on the same weigh than last month, even your measurements are the same, you're out of Cetosis"
- "But I didn't broke the diet. I swear.. well.. except for the meat".
He stops, and thinks. Then he says in a calm voice
- "We need to do something about this"
And then he explained the next procedure to follow.
He immediately sent me to do the cetosis test. I just couldnt pee on the cup and therefore, could not get any result on cetosis.
My weigh and EVERYTHING was the same as last month.
- "You're out of Cestosis" He said.
- "No", I immediately replied
- "Yes" he said "you're stuck on the same weigh than last month, even your measurements are the same, you're out of Cetosis"
- "But I didn't broke the diet. I swear.. well.. except for the meat".
He stops, and thinks. Then he says in a calm voice
- "We need to do something about this"
And then he explained the next procedure to follow.
Day 165 - I'm Back
You've probably been wandering why I haven't written. Well. I've been awfully bad.
NO, I did not break the diet. NO.
However, I did not respected the 150 grams meat rule. I started eating a lot more. A WHOLE LOT MORE.
I feel so guilty.. and so fat. I guess I am feeling I am loosing -again- control over meat.
NO, I did not break the diet. NO.
However, I did not respected the 150 grams meat rule. I started eating a lot more. A WHOLE LOT MORE.
I feel so guilty.. and so fat. I guess I am feeling I am loosing -again- control over meat.
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