Day 106 - New products!

It seems pronokal Mexico has launched new products: 

MINTS

AROMAS

MINTS: Refreshing mint pills, an option to avoid bad breath (25u a bag)

AROMAS: Peach mint and orange aromas for your water to add flavor and aromas. (6u per box)

I did not learned more about them for I dont know if the aromas count as 1 meal. 

I have no bad breath, so I don't really need them right now. 

Day 105 - Fire Test (Or as I say it SELF CONTROL - Level 10)

Ok, I know, I know this will sound massochistic (yes, even more). I promised a friend I would help her do a special Horse figured cake for her nephew. I couldn't say no. 

I LOVE cakes, and making them even more!. 

But there's the factor where you lick everything.. the batter, the spatula, your fingers and then pinch the cake to check flavor and consistency. 

Not this time. 

I WILL make the cake -cupcakes specifically- and make them into a horse figure. 

As fast as I can Be, I will try to do it right and test myself. 
I'll have a chocolate maltshake at hand, just in case I have a meltdown!! LOL

Day 104 - Instant need of chocolate.

This week I have gone back to old "habits". 

As soon as I finished eating the meat meal, I have THE URGE to have a chocolate shake. But I mean URGE!. 

Just like before, as soon as I finished eating, I had to have chocolate. Lots. 

I don't know, if this is a habit I need to break, or a specific body request. 

I need to identify it ASAP to stop it. 

Day 103 - What about the exercise?

¿What about it?

I have been mind-battling with that idea. My friend insists that I have to do it, my mind just ignores it.

My body doesn't.

I know I have to excersise, but I never have done it and ¿I never will? I don't know. 

I am trying to convince myself to do it. And do it soon. 

Especially to avoid this: 

Day 102 - Kitchen Cabaret

It is difficult still to this day to go down to the kitchen and prepare a meal. I prefer to call the delivery service, it's fast and delicious. This week I did not hesitated on calling in for lettuce tacos. 

And I know I could do it at home... but I just dont want to. 

Day 101 - It's not easy handling everyday food (week 2 of phase 2-a)

Now that I'm able to eat animal protein, I have been going out to eat to reataurants. 

I wanted SO much a Hamburger, but when I saw it.. I wanted to cry. I made myself strong and slowly separated the bread. Then I saw it had caramelized onions -which are a no-no- and delicately took them away. I separated them with the FRIED DELICIOUS POTATOES (covered in the images with the bread!) and accomodated the lettuce. mushrooms and tomato slice. 

Then I proceeded to eat. This was Monday. 

I felt good, I felt strong, I felt I was satisfied...maybe full. Still can not recognize the sensation, for I used to eat only by emotion not necessity. 

THIS IS HOW I PREPARED MY PLATE

THIS IS HOW I COVERED THE POTATOES AND ONIONS BELOW THE BREAD

THIS IS HOW I LEFT MY PLATE (for the fisrt time EVER!!)

On Tuesday I had breakfast. Two sunny side eggs with tomato salsa, called HUEVOS RANCHEROS. They usually are served on top of a tortilla with refried beans and "nachos" also, I used to clean the plate with a loaf of toast bread and left my plate CLEAN.

Miss, could you please bring me an order of Huevos Rancheros, without tortilla, without bread, without beans AND without nachos. 

It was hard, but once again, I made it.   Instead of "cleaning" the plate with several loafs of toasted bread, I used a spoon.

THIS IS HOW IT CAME, TWO SUNNY SIDE EGGS WITH TOMATO SALSA

THIS IS HOW I LEFT IT.

Day 100 - Weigh In (The 100th day)

So, today is my 100th day!!
So I will weigh in. Lets see how the meat week did..

Februray 18 - 194.8

May 27 -  157.4

Total pounds lost in 100 days:  37.4 pounds. (16.964 kilos)

Yippy YAY!!! 

Today I will be eating a Hamburger  (no bread, no condiments...just the meat lettuce and tomato) and IN MY MIND.. I will be looking JUST like this in a few moths!!! -LOL- : 

Day 99 - Any given sunday

I am loosing the daily envelope count. I dont know wht but at mid afternoon I loose the count of how many envelopes I have eaten!!

I guess I'll have to write a diary again. 

Those "end of the day pills" are forcing me to stop eating at 9 pm. I guess it's good. It's calming my hungry impulses. 

Day 98 - Everybody has an opinion

So. I decided to "come out" with some friends about the diet. I have been keeping all a secret and avoiding human contact -except only when I absolutely need to do it- so no one sees me. 

BUT. 

I'm excited now. I want to tell the whole world, show pictures of me and let them know my achievements. 

Big Mistake. 

Everybody seems to have an opinion, and that's OK, I mean, they are entitled to it. But please, do not bring me down. 

I simply won't let you. 

I know, everybody has their own experience, and every body works in a different way. I am convinced this will be my last diet and I will not bounce back again. I will do anything in my power to keep all the 68 pounds off.

Still, everybody thinks they have the answer, and that´s not true. Ok, you can tell me your story and your experiences with diets, we have all been there, but don't tell me what I'm doing is wrong, dangerous and it wont work in long terms because you need to know all the story behind my diet. 

Don't get me wrong, she is a dearest friend who has also suffered with weigh problems, but still it made me -just a little mad- she didn't acknowledge my effort and diet.

AND SO. 

I told that same day another friend of mine just to take away the bitter taste. 
Her answer was "I'm scared of those things, be careful". 
No acknowledgement. 
Felt... I don't know, I guess I felt dissapointed I didn't get the results I was expecting by sharing this big huge important "secret". 

It's funny how you expect things from other people and all the cheering and congratulations I receive daily from the people surrounding me I just simply take it for granted. 

Memo to me: Be more selective to whom I tell things to AND be more grateful to the people that applauds me my effort and results. 

Day 97 - Meet the supplements: "The Melman Cocktail"

"MELMAN COCKTAIL"

Now that I am taking "A Melman Cocktail" I decided to post all the supplements and medicines I am ingesting daily. 

Remember: not everybody needs to take the same supplements and not everybody needs to take the same ammount, it totally depends on your doctor's personal and individual prescription, this is just MY case which I'm sharing. 

1.- Victoza (Liraglutide) Medicine for diabetes II control - 1.2 Injected.
2.- Dabex XR (Metphormine) - Medicine for diabetes II control - 1 Pill.
3.- Zyloprim - Medicine to lower Uric Acid - 1 Pill.
4.- Omega III - 1 Pill.
5.- Vitamins - 1 Pill.
6.- Sodium - 2 Pills.
7.- Calcium - 1 Pill.
8.- Magnesium - 3 Pills.
9.- Corpotasin (Potasium) - 1 Pill.
10.- Bio Tone NTS - 4 Pills before going to bed.
11.- Nexium Mups - 1 pill (this is only for the next 14 days to avoid gastrits...¿ya think?)

These are my daily dosages. 

** Please do not auto prescribe yourself, always ask your doctor and NEVER take medicines without medical supervision!!!. 

Day 96 - Meat acceptance

So. I have been eating meat for two days. These are the feelings once I finish eating: 

• I am chewing slower... a LOT more slower than I used to.

• Right after eating, I get this mild stomach ache, like my body is assimilating the animal in me (LOL).

• I feel full instantly. 

• I have a saciety feeling all through the day.

• After my meal, I do not feel the need to eat desperatly like last week. 

I just remembered, the doctor told me to always eat first the salad before the meat, so I could be more full, but serioulsy, I haven't had the need to do that. Besides, I HATE salad!.. Except Ceasar Salad and the Morton's Ice Berg Salad! 

Also, I have realized I havent gobbled up my nopales as I used to last week. I can leave some on the plate for dinner. That's a good thing for me, cause I always devoured my food... everything..eventhough I wasn't hungry anymore. 

- Doctor, what can I do if I get another anxiety attack?

- Eat a cucumber with lemon. 

I'll keep that in mind. 

Day 95 - Phase 2-A

So finally. I have entered the Phase 2-A. 
(according to the Dr.this phase has a duration of 28 days in which I can loose up to 12-16 pounds!... INSANE!)

Since yesterday I've been able to eat meat. only 100-150 grams. 

So I started with beef, the one that comes in tacos, obviously, without the tortilla. I did not weight it because my scale had no battery, but I asked for three small tacos and OBVIOUSLY, my nopales. 

I will only eat the restaurant take-out this week, for it is very expensive and I cannot keep spending on restaurants AND pronokal envelopes. I simply cannot afford it, so I will make a promise to go to the supermarket and buy the vegetables for me to eat. Also the animal protein.

What can I eat? 

Besides the envelopes, I can only have ONE meal that includes meat. My envlope ration has been cut from 6 to 5 because one has been replaced with the animal protein. 

Let me remind you I am eating 6 envelopes (which is NOT normal) because  I have diabetes II and it was an exception doctors made for me. The usual average envelopes allowed are 5. 

Well, they gave me several lists of foods AND brands I am ONLY allowed to eat, these are the lists: 

RED MEATS: All red meat EXCEPT the greasy cuts (Sirloin, T-Bone, Rib Eye etc). .. Awww I LOVE RIB EYE!! -Snifff-.

WHITE MEATS: Chicken breast or grinded chicken breast & Pork EXCEPT: Pork chops, Pork Ribs etc.

TUNA: Only SOME canned tuna is allowed (Mexican brands specified) NOT RED TUNA, the one from the sushi. The list also contains the brands that are NOT allowed, because of it's high percentage of carbohydrates. Brands may vary from country to country.

FISH: Most of the white fish, and white crustaceans like shrimp, lobster Octopus, squid and oysters NOT SALMON or RED TUNA.


This weeks menu: 

MONDAY: Beef from tacos (without tortilla) and grilled nopales

Tuesday: Chicken breast grilled -like in tacos- (without tortilla) and grilled nopales. 

Wednesday: Chicken breast - Beef - Pork grilled -like in tacos- (without tortilla) and grilled nopales. 

Thursday: Broiled white fish with chili. Nevermind the rice. I left it on the plate. YES, I ate the tomato. 

Friday: TACO BLISS!!. So I was getting a little fed up of the taco-meat, but then, as I was reading the menu I received the other day from the restaurant, I read: You can change your taco with LETTUCE instead of tortilla. OH MY LORD! That extra crunch the lettuse gave to the meat combination was absolutely DELICIOUS! I'm so happy. The nopales are always implied with the tacos.

Saturday and Sunday : The same menu as yesterday. I need to change the menu. I am getting tired of the same taco flavors.

Day 94 - Measurements.

So Today I will share weight AND measurements:

Here are the facts after 90 days: 

* Weight is specified in KILOS
** Measurements in centimeters

*** Here's a converter if you need: http://www.onlineconversion.com/weight_common.htm

Date:	18-Feb	27-Feb	20-Mar	20-May	TOTAL LOST 90 Dys
Weight	86.4	83	79.2	71	15.4
Waist	119	103	95	91	28
Arm	36	34	35	34	2
Hip	114	111	110	104	10
Abdomen	119	103	95	91	28
Chest	112	110	105	103	9
Thigh	61	60	59	54	7

Day 93 - Doctors appointment (Including nutritional psychologist)

So.... Today was a great day! I went to the diet Dr. and talked to the psychologist. I told her: 

- I've been so anxious I had to eat more envelopes, I just couldn't help it!

- And why didn't you break the diet...let's say with a hamburger?

- I don't know. I guess I didn't wanted to break the ketosis

- Yes, but the ketosis is not a policeman that stands infront of you taking the food away... you have to give yourself credit for not breaking it. OK, maybe you ate more envelopes, which are not allowed, but still you had the strengh not to go into a Burger King and binge. 

- I know.. still.. I feel awful. 

- Well don't. You need to learn how to recognize those feelings and to acknowledge yourself for having so much control on the diet. 

So. I felt better. She was right. I could handle this diet. 

Then. I went to the Dr's office. He wasn't happy when I told him I had an "envelope binge"... he immediately made me a Ketosis test. "You're in the verge of breaking the Ketosis". 

I was disspointed at myself. But somehow I knew I was in trouble. But it was time for damage control and I was ready to embrace it. 

He added some more supplements that -he said- it would help my ketosis stay in "the zone" and now in Phase 2-A.

Here comes the meat!

Day 92 - Weigh In (EARLY Weigh in)

Februray 18 - 194.8

May 18 - 160.0

Total pounds lost in 90 days:  34.8 pounds. (15.785 kilos)

I'm SO paranoid I had to weigh in a day earlier. 
So compared to last week, I lost 1.4 pounds, but compared to 2 weeks ago, I lost 0.4 pounds. 

This feels so strange. I want to believe it's because I have been feeling anxious and NOT because I broke ketosis in ANY way. 

The Dr. told me he would make me a Ketosis test next appointment. That would be next tuesday. I am SEROIUSLY HOPING the nopales are not guilty on this, for I have been still eating them. 

I was going to start con cauliflower last wednesday, I bought 10 to have a weeks stock... but the vegetable had inner life. Yes, it had green maggots. I almost fainted and of course, I am disgusted to even think of buying it again, so I'm stuck with the nopales for now. 

It feels dissapointing not loosing weigh continously, I feel impotence in front of the food and I feel I am being manipulated by it not having ANY strengh in self control.

Just a few hours ago, at 1 am, I felt this DESPERATE need to eat, but I mean, It almost hurted!, so I had an extra soup and an extra maltshake. 

I'll talk to the Dr on tuesday and see what's going on with me. 

Day 91 - Fill 'er up...with WATER!

So I have decided to try these three days (before the Dr.s appointment) to do five envelopes and vegetables. And the rest of the day in between meals fill my stomach with water. 

It's a matter of control and control only. Lets see how today goes. 

UPDATE: Couldn't fill my anxiety with water. Kept eating my 6 envelopes, and 2 extra... Iwill talk to the Dr about this. 

Day 90 - 3 hour wait

Today is my 3 months anniversary, I thought I would never make it, I still think I won't make it to the end, although I am convinced I will end this stupid diet and be the last for the rest of my life, sometimes it seems so hard... I MEAN SOOO HARD.

So today, to avoid diet bingeing, I made a promise to myself. Hold on 3 hours between each meal, that way I will not binge. 

So far, so good. I guess. 

I do not know why am so anxious. I think I'm going down with this diet, up to the point where I am actually thinking I will not be loosing any weight this week either. So dissapointed at myself. 

Day 89 - Out of Control

I am absolutely OUT OF CONTROL!!! Feeling hungry at night, like famished, like I need more, like I want to break the diet. 

But no. 

I will not. I will get to the end of it, but still, I have found myself feeling a huge void, as if I had stpped eating and then hunger strikes. Although I have been eating the same for the last two weeks, these past days have made me question my eating habits. 

It's like I'm out of control, or at least the feeling is. I have been eating a couple more envelopes than the usual (6).

I will tell this to my doctor next tuesday's appointment. 

Still...out of control state of mind.

Day 88 - I know...

I know I haven't written for a while, but these past weeks I have been like crazy, I have been going out and doing stuff I was afraid to do before. 

Although it's hard and I have been eating one -or two- extra envelopes because of the anxiety going out gives me, it feels absolutely great when EVERYBODY tells you how good you look and haw gorgeous you look and how much weight I have lost. 

It's an EGO trip, I know, but sometimes it feels SOOO good. 

I guess going out is a mind over matter thing...or as Ross would say: UNAGI.

Day 87 - Met a Pronokal withrawer

So today I was doing a chore, and I met a Pronokal withrawer. 

Because of a coincidence, we started talking about diet and what we were doing, and we both were doing Pronokal. 

He told me he only did it for a month, then he had an accident and then everything went downhill from there. He had lost 20 pounds in ONE MONTH, but gained 10 pounds because he stayed at home recuperating. 

- I ate 12 doughnuts at once... a dozen of jumbo doughnuts. (he said almost laughing)

I just couldn't believe it, I felt bad for him. All the effort, all the money, and getting beaten by doughnuts. 

But then he said to me something I had not payed attention to, or at least, not given that importance. 

Water. 

-The Most Important Thing About this Diet is water - he said- you have to drink AT LEAST two liters. Then you are halfway through. You need to help the grease leave your body. 

I have been neglecting the water. I know, I'm the worst. I will try and do that extra effort with the water theme. 

Day 86 - Weigh in

Phooey!

I just knew it. 161.2 Gained some weight. I'm cutting down on the delicious restaurant nopales and will start cooking at home again. 

Phooey!

Day 85 - I've got a feeling

I have been feeling bloated lately... I have this feeling tomorrow's weigh in is not going to be a succesful one. I have been keeping the regime impecable, but it's just this terrible feeling I have. 

Haven't been reporting too much on the blog, but there's really nothing to report nowadays. 

Day 84 - ANXIETY MAYHEM

So I can now accept I have been having anxiety attacks for the last two weeks. Besides work and personal problems I did not had scheduled, I have been working 24 hour days and barely sleeping or day sleeping, loosing control on almost everything. 

This is the reason I stopped writing for the last days, I just couldn't focus on writing about the diet. 

Day 79 - Weigh In

So this week I lost  1.6 Pounds . 

Februray 18 - 194.8

April 29 - 160.4

Total pounds lost in 77 days:  34.4 pounds. (15.603 kilos)

I had the feeling I'd lost fewer pounds compared to the other weeks, but I assume it's because I stopped taking the Omega III. 

I will start taking the other Omega III formula the Dr. gave me TODAY!. 

The pill is HUGE and soooo Yellow.