Day 90 - 3 hour wait

Today is my 3 months anniversary, I thought I would never make it, I still think I won't make it to the end, although I am convinced I will end this stupid diet and be the last for the rest of my life, sometimes it seems so hard... I MEAN SOOO HARD.

So today, to avoid diet bingeing, I made a promise to myself. Hold on 3 hours between each meal, that way I will not binge. 

So far, so good. I guess. 

I do not know why am so anxious. I think I'm going down with this diet, up to the point where I am actually thinking I will not be loosing any weight this week either. So dissapointed at myself. 

Day 89 - Out of Control

I am absolutely OUT OF CONTROL!!! Feeling hungry at night, like famished, like I need more, like I want to break the diet. 

But no. 

I will not. I will get to the end of it, but still, I have found myself feeling a huge void, as if I had stpped eating and then hunger strikes. Although I have been eating the same for the last two weeks, these past days have made me question my eating habits. 

It's like I'm out of control, or at least the feeling is. I have been eating a couple more envelopes than the usual (6).

I will tell this to my doctor next tuesday's appointment. 

Still...out of control state of mind.

Day 88 - I know...

I know I haven't written for a while, but these past weeks I have been like crazy, I have been going out and doing stuff I was afraid to do before. 

Although it's hard and I have been eating one -or two- extra envelopes because of the anxiety going out gives me, it feels absolutely great when EVERYBODY tells you how good you look and haw gorgeous you look and how much weight I have lost. 

It's an EGO trip, I know, but sometimes it feels SOOO good. 

I guess going out is a mind over matter thing...or as Ross would say: UNAGI.

Day 87 - Met a Pronokal withrawer

So today I was doing a chore, and I met a Pronokal withrawer. 

Because of a coincidence, we started talking about diet and what we were doing, and we both were doing Pronokal. 

He told me he only did it for a month, then he had an accident and then everything went downhill from there. He had lost 20 pounds in ONE MONTH, but gained 10 pounds because he stayed at home recuperating. 

- I ate 12 doughnuts at once... a dozen of jumbo doughnuts. (he said almost laughing)

I just couldn't believe it, I felt bad for him. All the effort, all the money, and getting beaten by doughnuts. 

But then he said to me something I had not payed attention to, or at least, not given that importance. 

Water. 

-The Most Important Thing About this Diet is water - he said- you have to drink AT LEAST two liters. Then you are halfway through. You need to help the grease leave your body. 

I have been neglecting the water. I know, I'm the worst. I will try and do that extra effort with the water theme. 

Day 86 - Weigh in

Phooey!

I just knew it. 161.2 Gained some weight. I'm cutting down on the delicious restaurant nopales and will start cooking at home again. 

Phooey!

Day 85 - I've got a feeling

I have been feeling bloated lately... I have this feeling tomorrow's weigh in is not going to be a succesful one. I have been keeping the regime impecable, but it's just this terrible feeling I have. 

Haven't been reporting too much on the blog, but there's really nothing to report nowadays. 

Day 84 - ANXIETY MAYHEM

So I can now accept I have been having anxiety attacks for the last two weeks. Besides work and personal problems I did not had scheduled, I have been working 24 hour days and barely sleeping or day sleeping, loosing control on almost everything. 

This is the reason I stopped writing for the last days, I just couldn't focus on writing about the diet. 

Day 79 - Weigh In

So this week I lost  1.6 Pounds . 

Februray 18 - 194.8

April 29 - 160.4

Total pounds lost in 77 days:  34.4 pounds. (15.603 kilos)

I had the feeling I'd lost fewer pounds compared to the other weeks, but I assume it's because I stopped taking the Omega III. 

I will start taking the other Omega III formula the Dr. gave me TODAY!. 

The pill is HUGE and soooo Yellow. 

Day 72 - Doctor´s appointment

So today I went to my check up routine. Overall it was good.

He gave me another kind of Omega Pills, I will be trying them, hope I won't feel bad this time. 

He is still pointing out I have to weigh 54 kilos. I think it's a very low weigh for me. Still I am on 73 kilos.. so it's a looong way to go yet. 

I will be on phase one for the next three weeks, but they will be the last weeks on this stage. The last week of may I will be entering Phase 2: Meat!

I just cant wait! even as I'm writing, my mouth is watering!

Day 71 - Weigh In

Another 2.6 Pounds less for this week. 

Februray 18 - 194.8

April 29 - 162.0

Total pounds lost in 70 days:  32.8 pounds. (14.800 kilos)

Day 70 - ¿Happy? Birthday

I went to a birthday today, tacos, hotdogs popcorn, cotton candy and cake... delicious cake. 
I really tried to be strong but there was a time when I really considered breaking it. I mean, REALLY considering it. Then the voice of my concience -my sister-in-law- told me: " If you break it, you won't get on track again...ever. 

She talked from experience. So after a few nopales and zuccini and soup and orange drink, I pulled myself together and went by that day. 

Memo to me: DONT GO OUT YET!

Day 69 - Clothes

I am starting to use the clothes I had on my closet for the last two years. It is exciting to remember what nice clothes I have and I had forgotten. 

My Jeans are looking "baggy" style, even though they are "tight", I have lost so many pounds they dont look good anymore. I guess I will be going on June for a new pair of Jeans. 

Feeling nervous. 

Day 67 -

Day 66 - Tips to avoid Food Cravings

Here are some tips to avoid food cravings I found on a website. 

TIPS

Day 65 - Alpha Beta Gamma Kappa... OMEGA 3, 6 & 9

So it seems the recurring stomach ache is caused by the Omega supplement. 
I stopped taking ALL the supplements since friday and on Monday I started taking them again. Once I took the Omega the pain began. Today I did not ingested it and I felt just fine. 

I will stop taking it until next week's doctor appointment and let him know this, lets see what he says. 

Note: Pronokal has never had any side effect complaints. 

Day 64 - Weigh In

Hold...hold on just a second, I'm too asleep to remember EXACTLY the weigh I just saw on the scale... I'm going back again, just to make sure....

Yes, It was correct. JUST when I thought I was going down slower...

BAM!!!

3.8 pounds less. Today I am excited! I have entered the "minus 30 pounds loss".

These are the results for today

Februray 18 - 194.8

April 22 - 164.6

Total pounds lost in 63 days:  30.2 pounds. (13.69 kilos)

Day 63 - Bad Medicine

Yes, the terrible cramps came from the ingestion of all the supplements at once in a small period of time.

I am starting again today and I will be taking them much more solwer with a longer period of time between each. 

Let's see how that goes.

Day 62 - Sleepless in Seattle

I did not sleep at all today, and at 3 am and 7 am I had a soup and a milkshake. I feel like I am breaking the diet, however I'm not, I'm just giving my body an extra for keeping awake, so I don't feel bad later. 

Let's see how the weigh in goes on Monday.

Day 61 - Still Aching

So I went to the Pronokal Headquarters for some supplements I ran out of. I decided to ask one of the doctors there about these stomach aches/cramps I have been getting at night on the last few days. 

She said Pronokal products do not produce any side effect, but MAYBE the supplements are too tough for my stomach: 

- Take one pill every 3 minutes according to your doctors directions, do not ingest them all at once. 

It sounded fair enough for I had separated all my 15 pills into 4 daily takes. All at once, some times, I would take 4 pills some times 5 or 6. 

Today I did not took the supplements, was at the movies at 10 pm and had to cope with the pain for 30 minutes. REALLY UNCONFORTABLE FEELING.

Tomorrow I will be  digesting all the pills spaced with a 3-5 min period of time lapse, and see how it goes. 

Day 60 - Two Months

Today it's my second month. It seems forever but after I saw the results yesterday on a picture, I guess it is worth it all the way. 

Yay!

Day 59 - Stomach Ache

Having terrible stomach cramps. Couriously they start at 8 pm... then it goes away but it really hurts. 

I amguesing it's the mineral water. It appens every time I gulp mineral water down. 

Memo to me: Drink more water. 

Day 57 - Weigh in

Another 2.2 Pounds less for this week. 

Februray 18 - 194.8

April 15 - 168.4

Total pounds lost in 56 days:  26.4 pounds. ( 12.067 kilos)

Day 56 - The Itchy and Scratchy show

Early morning today, I have been feeling itchy all around my face and shoulders. 
I have no idea why, since I haven't used any cream at all. 

I am still paranoid about the nopales from that restaurant. 

I'll have it checked tomorrow. 

Today I have been feeling particularly hungry, I crave everything and want to abort the diet. 

I am angry about the exercise. I know I have to do it. It's just so difficult. 

Day 55 - Cupcakes and Strawberries

I have NO idea why I am feeling this urge to buy food for other people. 
Not any food. 
Cupcakes and Strawberries. 

It's crazy I know, but it's like I need to do it. I smell the cupcakes and the chocolate flavored ones are really looking yum. 
It's not that I'm masochistic, I really do not know why I am I doing this. 

Although I can handle it, it's just crazy.

Day 54 - Paranoid

I have been craving for the restaurant nopales. Badly. and I have returned to the old habits again. Instead of buying natural ones on the supermarket, I go and splurge on the restaurant ones.

I did this on Thursday, Friday and Saturday. 

Now I'm feeling extremely paranoid, cause I found a piece of melted cheese between two of the nopales.  I did not ate it but my mind began to wander with "what if's": 

- What if it has more grease? 
- What if this brings me out of Ketosis?
- What if I gain weigh?

So Paranoid. Still I will pay ANYTHING for that delicious restaurant flavour. 

I have NO expectations at all for the weigh in on monday. 

That's how paranoid I am.  

Day 53 - Anyone Hungry? NOT ME!!!

So today I left home early, it's the first time in months I dared to use jeans with out a cover, meaning no blazer or sweater or anything else. Just my blouse. 

AND

It's the first time in more than one year I went to a friends house to have lunch (well, to see her eat lunch along with her family which INCLUDED CHOCOLATE CAKE).

Her house is two hours away from here. And I did a horrible mistake. 

I did not take enough envelopes. 

It was an unplanned visit, and I was already half way there, so I thought there would be veggies I could eat with my organe drink. 

There wasn't. 

But I did not felt hungry AT ALL. 

Ketosis mode: ON

Of course, I came running back home and had my veggies and soup, but I felt good going out and being again with tridimentional people. 

I fell good. 

Day 52 - Exercise

So I went to the diet doctor and he only reassured to me I had to exercise. 

Have no choice if I want to speed the process. 

Tomorrow I will go and see where can I do this. 

By the way, I am in TOTAL Ketosis. I am not hungry at all, and not feeling any anxiety like I used to. 

Day 51 - Weigh In

Frustration and more frustration. I just cannot help it. I just want to go FASTER!


2.2 Pounds less for this week. 

Februray 18 - 194.8

April 08 - 170.4

Total pounds lost in 49 days:  24.4 pounds. ( 11.067 kilos)

Day 50 - Serenity Now!

Today I finally went to the endocrynologyst. I have always said that going to the doctor and taking your lab results is like a college exam, you don't know if you are going to fail monumentally or pass with an A+.

It seems I approved. Besides my Uric Acid, which is up by two points, everything is excellent, including the glucose levels. 

Im happy. I guess. 

No. I am NOT happy. Yes, I accept the fact health is the most important thing, but now I have reached that point in the diet I just want to get over with. I am getting bored and fed up (no pun intended).

My first question to the Dr. was: ¿Is it true I will be loosing the 8 kilos -16 pounds- every month as the diet Dr. told me?

- No, that statistic works only for men. Women loose weight slower and it depends, ¿have you been excercising?

- ....no.....

- Well, there you go, you need to exercise AT LEAST three times a week for 20/30 minutes, and then your metabolism will go faster (he said this to me as he wrote on his computer report: Sedentary. 

OH well... if I want to loose the weight I am expecteing weekly, I will have to go to the gym. I will ask my friend if I can go with her that way I'll feel more pressured to go. 

Hate it. 
Hate the diet
Hate being fat
Hate everything right now. 

Yes I have issues with the gym. Since I was 18. 

SERENITY NOW!!!!

Day 49 - Trapped in her own body

So today I was zapping on TV. 1000 channels and NOTHING to watch. Until I saw the Discovery Channel. 

I don't know if today was the "killer Pounds" Marathon, but the title caught my eye and I left the channel there. 

OH

MY

GOSH!

I think I shouldn't have done that!!

I will not go int details, BUT, amongst the 5 shows I saw, the last one was the most impressive. 

There was a lady (Dominique Lanoise) who was 600 pounds and desperately requested for a Bypass surgery. She was desperate for one because she had been in bed for the last two years and could not move. 

She struggled, doctors helped her to loose weight, but it was too difficult for her -I could totally relate to this- after 10 months she finally looses 125 pounds which made her available for the operation. The doctor said to her, she would be going to the hospital on the following weeks. 

On those few weeks (and I STILL do not know why), she gained again the 120 pounds already lost!! 

The health doctor looked up for another doctor who could make the operation on her 625 pound body. And they operated. 

After the operation, she would not stop eating, and she died two weeks later. 

I was so moved with that story. So hurtful. She ate to death literally. She just could not stop. 

And that made me reconsider. 

I have been waiting for the diet to end so I can eat everything I like, and I even pictured myself bingeing. 

After these shows,  I decided I want to live a long healthy life, and this effort I am doing is incredible and I should appreciate it. I MUST learn how to eat and I MUST understand food can also lead you to your own death. 

Scary, but it was a wake up call. 


Video HERE

Day 48 - Another Doctor's Point of View

Today I went to buy more food. 

I asked this new doctor ¿how realistic is the 16 pounds a month weigh loss? She commented it was "too optimistic", people's body are different and weigh loss vary from person to person. 

- So, I won't be loosing the corresponding 16 pounds this month?

- You will probably loose 10 to 12 pounds, and that's GOOD. You are doing fine. 

So I finally understood, I won't be loosing that ammount of pounds this month, but still loose more. I feel this explanation was good because then I will not feel that frustrated every time I weigh myself. 


Not.

Day 47 - Tip of the day (A.K.A: - Memo to me)

Day 46 - (mute)

Today there is nothing really to tell. As boring as my life.

Just posting to keep a daily track 

Day 45 - Not hungry

I have stopped feeling hungry and anxious. I even made sandwiches for my cousin!!! and didn't even feel tempted. At all. 

The motivation is kicking in. 

I tried the bread again, I wanted to do it like tortilla chips, but..

IT'S LIKE PLASTIC!!!

So it didn't worked out. 

Sadly I still have lots and lots of envelopes I just do not like. I will try taking them to the doctors office and see if people wants them. I'll exchange them or  sell them for half the price!!

LOL!

Day 44 - Thirsty

Feeling peculiarly thirsty since last night. I have been drinking lots of water, but not "lots of water" cause they say too much is dangerous. But I have this feeling of dryness in my mouth like I'm in the desert. 

Not a nice sensation at all. 

Day 43 - Weigh in

So today I had NO expectations at all.
Just went towards the scale and got up. 
I had no idea how much I had lost after I looked at the scale numbers. 

2.6 pounds less. Ok I guess. I have surpassed the 20 pound barrier.

Let´s do some math: 

Supposedly, I should be loosing 4 pounds per week, which means I should have lost by today 24 pounds. 

Not the case. 

I know I am very strict on this matter, but when the Dr. says I should be loosing 16 pounds a month.... it just doesn't add up! That's the frustration. Still I am going down...

The numbers for today are: 

Februray 18 - 194.8

April 01 - 172.6

Total pounds lost in 42 days:  22.2 pounds. (10.069 kilos)

Lost 1/3 of my extra weigh. 

Day 42 - Waiting

Waiting for tomorrow, for the weigh in. 

Today I am not that passionate about the weigh loss. 

I just want to avoid frustration....

Day 41 - Restaurants and Restaurants

Today, in an unplanned day, I ended up with friends eating at restaurants. 

No, not eating. Watching. 

At lunch, my four friends ordered this massive plate with meats, cheese, nopales and more meat!! OHH MY LORD! The smell almost made me jump inside it and gobble up E-VERY-THING. 

But no. 

I asked for a cup of hot water, poured my soup envelope and drank it. Also, I asked for mineral water. 

I could cope with that big test. 

Then at night, we went to a TACOS restaurant. I wanted to cry, I only had an orange drink envelope and that would not be enough!!

I remembered the had nopales there, so I ordered 3 plates. One after the other. But it calmed my anxiety and the hunger I felt. 

I think I am handling it good so far. 
Let's see on monday how the weigh in goes. 

Day 40 - Liquid food

So, I knew this time would come, where I would finally realize I'm just eating liquids. Besides vegetables, all the envelopes I consume are liquid. Soup, maltshakes and juices. 
I am not complainig, but I will soon need solids again. 

This weekend I will try and do the other envelopes I did not like in another way to see if the texture and flavour changes. 

❤❤ I really hope this blog helps other people around the world, who are doing this diet. ❤❤


Outrageous!: I foud out there is no Pronokal in other countries in America. Just Mexico. I think I could get a franchise for Argentina... LOL!

Day 39 - Hungry Eyes

Today I had to run a few errands, like going to the supermarket and pharmacy for the corresponding items. 

I hated every minute of it. I saw the chocolates on the candy isle and the chocolates near the cashier. 

I suffered, imagineing the flavour and taste of each and every one of them. 

HORRIBLE FEELING

Although I knew I could binge on every single one of them, I knew I just couldn't eat and break the ketosis. Really, that is the ONLY thing that's stopping me right now. 

Eventhough I had on my purse a chicken noodle soup and orange drink envelope, my mouth salivated like a rabid dog thinking of chocolates. THOSE chocolates. 

I ate the soup, drank the orange drink and kept it calm for a while. 
Then I came home and saw delicious cookies called "Garabatos" my family had bought. No mercy at all. But I still had to hold on tight and ran for a maltshake. I prefered to eat one extra envelope that eat something I shouldn't. 

It's getting harder and harder each day. I'm ending my fifth week on sunday, just eleven more weeks to go, or 89 days, but ¿who's counting?. 

Day 38 - Forbidden Fruit

So today for the first time, I craved fruit. A tangerine to be more specific. 

I returned to Pronokal Headquarters to see if the maltshakes had arrived. 

And they had. 

So I bought 4 6-packs and exchanged NEW boxes I had bought last week. I'm getting tired of Nuggets and Potato cream, so I changed them for chicken noodle soup and orange drinks. 

So, I ended with only soups and drinks. I don´t know if this is going to be good, but It's what I like right now. 

Sometimes I look back at the old envelopes I have in storage and couldn't be exchanged. I add up the $$ I spent and It's a lot. 

I am seriously considering eating them somewhere near the future. 

Day 37 - Ice Ice Baby

So today I discovered the pleasure of ice on a blender with an envelope of Chocolate drink or orange drink. 

SCRUMPTIOUS!

It ws like a frappe, and it totally gives a different texture to the drink, making it velvety and just like a thick maltshake. 

The orange one remembered me of the oldie 80's drink: "Orange Julius"

Yes indeed. 

Day 36 - Weigh In

Woke up. 
Today I did NOTjumped out of bed and ran towards the scale. 
I had ABSOLUTELY NO EXPECTATIONS WHATSOEVER. 
Got the scale out and saw my weight. 
I was so asleep, I saw my weight but did not understood how many pounds I had lost. I didn't had my chart anywhere near to see the difference. 

Then I saw it. 
Then I got the scale out again and weighed again. 

YESSSSS!

FOUR POUNDS LESS!

So the results for today are: 

Februray 18 - 194.8

March 25 - 175.2

Total pounds lost in 36 days:  19.6 pounds. (8.890 kilos)

I feel a small happiness growing inside me. 

Day 35 - Sssssllllloooooowwwww

Days are going REAL SLOW. It seems sometimes I live just to eat vegetables and diet. today is NOT a good day. Tomorrow is weigh in day, I hope I lost more pounds. 

.

Day 34 - ¿Again? (and again and again and again)

Just getting tired of the same food over and over again!
But I'm scared of trying new things and not liking them. 





.

Day 33 - I want Candy (A.K.A. Chocolate)

I am really craving...but I mean a hurting craving for chocolate. Need to look for a susbstitute on the envelopes I have. 

Day 32 - My Milkshake brings all the boys to the yard

Again. Frustration. 

I went to but ALL the corresponding envelopes for the next 21 days. It was a massive crecit card charge, but I guess it's the price of being again healthy. The only thing that really frustrated me was, there were no Milkshakes. 

NO MILKSHAKES!!!

The only drink I could bare to eat at 8 am, and they were out of it. "We will be getting them until the end of this month" I was angry really. 

So I bought the cocoa drink, which I just tried, like warm cocoa. 
PROTEIN FLAVOR KICKED IN ASAP. This is ridiculous. I had to eat something so I tried really hard to gulp it fast. 

I also, in a rare episode, I felt nausea at 18:00 hrs. I guess it was the Omega kicking in. I wanted to eat something, but I just couldnt I forced myself to drink the cocoa mix, and the sensation went away. 

Let's see when I can get my milkshakes back again!. 

Day 31 - Doctor's appointment

Today I went to my routince control check at the doctor´s office. Below I will be posting the results of weight and measurements. 

I had a few questions and NO I cannot do excercise just yet. And this time, OMEGA 3, 4 & 9 was added to my daily dosage of pills. This will help the metabolism speed up a little. 

Also, another doctor joined us, the Psychologist (I'm sorry I can't recall her name). She told me super interesting facts about body perception, for example, once you have drastically lost so much weight, it takes up to 9 months to accept your new figure. This, because for so many years we get used to being fat/obese you get used to measuring dimensions of doors to pass by or chairs to sit on, that your mind takes a while to accept you are not the same dimension as before. 

That's why I look the difference on my body, but not a big difference on it, although it is a fact I have lost a lot of weight and measurements. 

Anyways, let's go to the facts after 30 days: 

* Weight is specified in KILOS
** Measurements in centimeters

Date:		18-Feb	27-Feb	20-Mar	TOTAL LOST
Weight		86.4	83	79.2	7.2
Waist		119	103	95	24
Arm		36	34	35	1
Hip		114	111	110	4
Abdomen		119	103	95	24
Chest		112	110	105	7
Thight		61	60	59	2
Chin		47	47	46	1

Well, I guess I am happy about these results, but then again, I do not want to get all happy and stuff cause if I get too excited I know I will stop doing this diet. 

SO: YAY!!.

Day 30 - Give "piece" a chance

Piece of Chocolate Cake


So I decided to give the chocolate cake another chance. This time, instead of cooking it on the microwave, I did it on the oven, in a mini cupcake mold. 

So the texture came out different. Not goosh, but a plastic like texture. 
I added sweet n low. 

I cannot start to explain the taste in my mouth. OK, so the sweetner made it a lot more bitter, but the cake was not a cake, it was plastic. 

Although I have not given up on this cake, I will not try it anytime soon.

I will ask for recipes on this. Maybe next time it will be better. 

Oh, of course, I ate it. 

Here's a pic

Day 29 - Weigh In

Good morning sunshine...

WALKED towards the scale, expecting the worst. 

2.6 Pounds. 

WHAT THE HELL!!!?!?!?!? This is not what I expected. Specially when I´m only eating 5 envelopes and very few vegetables. Well, not " few" strictly the ones allowed. Not even 20 grams extra.

On thursday I have a doctor's appointment. We'll see how many KILOS I'm down according to his scale and if I got down to my one month goal. 

Phooey. 

So the results for today are: 

Februray 18 - 194.8

March 11 - 179.2

28 days - 15.6 pounds. (7.076 kilograms)


________________________________________________________________